Well, I don't feel like documenting this moment of my life but at least it'll give some people the right idea, as in: stop asking me how I am, I'm in fucking pain, happy?!

So yeah. I got my ultrasound and they took some tissue samples. The weird thing is, after a half an hour it started to hurt. Bad.

Now in the evening it hurts like a motherfucker. When I eat, when I swallow, when I do anything, breath exist, am awake. They said this'll be like a mosquito bite. Nobody said it should hurt afterwards. And it frikkin does. I can't whisper as my throat closes up from the pain.

I'm pretty sure it's not supposed to hurt this bad. And fuck it if I feel like showering, washing my hair and dressing up AND traveling back to the fucking hospital to have it looked at. Where, most probably they will use me as a pin cushion and draw blood to see what the fuck they might have fucked up. And I have no idea what they would do to fix me.

I just want this fucking pain gone. I think they might have scratched or punctured something they shouldn't have.

Fuck. Why me?

And I don't want you asking me how I am. If you meekly ask me how I feel, I will beat you half to death with your own severed arm then stuff it down your throat. Thank you.