We are experiencing some technical difficulties

Yesterday I got a shot against this year's flu strain. Now I'm still feeling like a troll sat on me. I still have a slight fever, foggy brain (contrary to general belief I do have a working one) and my arm (left arm, where I got the shot) hurts like a bitch and there is a hot patch of skin where I got the shot.

Owies.

Also, we have a family crisis. I'll be vague. We are all depressed, my mom's bitchy, my dad takes sedatives and I try to be as inconspicuous as possible. The problem is that we don't know anything certain. And no, I will not elaborate. I'm just... noting it because I feel like stones are pressing me down and I'm depressed and I don't wanna be.

So that's that.

Silly Game

Ok, game is played by collecting all your music in one music player software, setting it to shuffle and answering each question with the song it plays for you, one after the other.

These are my answers: (But since I forgot half my music at first, I did those questions again, and there were some funny answers I just couldn't delete so... if there are two, second one is the second try.)

What is your name, or what should it be?
Malice Mizer - Baroque

How's your life now?
Era – Don’t you

What's your nickname?
Nanase Hikaru - Dragon Summon
Deep Forest – Deep Weather

What's your theme song?
Kazuhisa Yamaguchi & Ichirous Imai - Delicious (Sax Version)
Origa - Serenata

What's your best friend's theme song?
Kövi Szabolcs - Mese a Tűznél
Matsuda Toshio – Kaze no Tamakura

How will your life go?
Coldplay - Yellow

Will you marry?
Bush - Swallowed

Will you have kids?
Blondie & Pat Benatar – One Way Or Another

What will be your job?
Nanase Hikaru – Gehena Ruins

Will you finish school?
Origa - Date of Rebirth

Who is your best friend?
See-Saw - Fake Wings
See-Saw - Obsession

Who will be your significant other?
Leonard Cohen – One Of Us Cannot Be Wrong

Who do you fancy?
Delerium - Euphoria

How will you die?
Enigma – Mea Culpa

How do you feel at this moment?
Meredith Brooks – I’m a Bitch

What's your favourite song?
Tommy february6 - Choose Me Or Die
Therion – Symphony of the Dead

How would you describe your folks?
Queen Adreena – Cold Fish

And your best friend?
Maaya Sakamoto – Sanctuary
Yoko Kanno – Nomad Soul

And your teachers?
Pet Shop of Horros – Damage
Hikaru Midorikawa - Spiritualized

Your significant other or the one you fancy?
Dead Can Dance - In the Kingdom of the Blind the One-Eyed are Kings

Yourself?
Adiemus - Song of Tears
Therion – Secret of the Runes

What's your best trait?
Yuu Yuu Hakusho – Bokutachi
Nine Inch Nails - Wish

What will you be or should be when you grow up?
Amedeo Minghi - Vattene Amore
Prodigy - Firestarter

How would you describe this test?
Roxette - Looking for Jane

What makes you angry?
Elend - The Embrace

What makes you sad?
Nightwish - Sleeping Sun

What makes you happy?
Madonna - Vogue

What makes you want to dance?
Phil Collins - Another Day In Paradise

What is your favourite colour?
Nickelback - Diggin This

How would you describe yourself?
Enigma - The Voice and the Snake

Who is your biggest enemy?
Lacuna Coil - Cold Heritage

Who do you hate?
Prodigy - Your Love

Who do you love?
Lesiem - Occultum

Who do you want?
Amethystium - Fable

Finish the sentence!

I wish...
Ayreon - Sail Away to Avalon

I'd like...
Dead Can Dance - The Cardinal Sin

I wanna kill...
HP Lovecraft Historical Society 12 - It's Beginning To Look A Lot Like Fish-Men

I wanna eat...
Nightwish - Bless the Child

My head...
Phil Collins - In The Air Tonight

I am...
Lighthouse Family - Absolutely Everything

My best trait...
Nightwish - The Carpenter

My eyes...
Round Table feat Nino - Chobits OST - Let Me Be With You

My hair...
Queen Adreena - Friday's Child

My face...
Lacuna Coil - Falling Again

You should do...
Phil Collins - One More Night

Advice:
Yoko Kanno - Promises Not Necessary

How do others see you?
Dead Can Dance - The Carnival Is Over

How do you see yourself?
Graveworm - In Vengeance of Our Wrath

A new record

Whoa. 9 hours of shopping... a new record. o.O

No, I haven't killed anyone, neither have I been killed... Although both my dad and I had books with us, so... We were able to pass the time productively. Although seriously... 9 hours!!! Holy coconut!

I also had lots of new clothes lined up for me, which was really, and I mean it, really pleasant, because I finally got the skirt of my dreams, although in a different colour. Well, who cares. It suits me just fine.

So... what did we buy? I shall write a "short" list.

• Bead supplies. (I got into the whole mess because I begged my dad to drive me by car to this faraway shop, because I didn't feel like wasting 5 hours of my life just getting there and back...) So when the shop assistant told me they'll be raising their prices in a week, my mom told me to buiy everything I wanted, NOW. She also bought a load of beads, which I will have to work into art for her. *sigh* It's not really amusing using the old patterns and colours I dislike. Oh well.
  I also got some much needed beading thread in colours, and some gunmetal grey, matte bugle beads. Never tried those, so I think I'll have fun with them next week.
  
  
• My dream taffeta skirt, long and bell shaped, silver (although I always wanted a taffeta skirt in a deep green, but oh well) and the "frills" at the bottom sewn with silver thread in flowery and vine patterns. It's beautiful, really. I was so in love with it I couldn't leave it behind, not like I wanted to, mind. ^^
  
  
• Jeans. In a faded grayish blue. I was into the gray ones and the faded teal-green ones, but they only had much bigger and much smaller. *sniffle* So blue jeans it is. Not like I'm complaining or anything.
  
  
• A deep green skirt with lots of layers of some see-through material, every upper one shorter than the last. The longest layer reaches beyond my ankles. Good. It also looks good on me, although knee-high fuzzy blue socks are a no. Well, I didn't dress up for trying on fancy clothes, I dressed up for friggin cold and jeans and boots. Course the shop assistant had to make fun of me, but once I told her if she minds my presence, I could go, somewhere else. She decided to smile instead and stopped talking. Good.
  
  
• A new umbrella. Mint green. Works fine, was cheap.
  
  
• New case for glasses made of wood, covered in silk with oriental flower patterns. Also green and pretty.
  
  
• A small lipstick holder box thingy, with a mirror. Also green, with floral patterns. (Leaves, mostly.)
  
  I think I'm developing my own pattern here, don't you agree?
  
  
• Random knicknacks, new shoelaces for my boots, a picture frame...
  
  All right, I admit it, there was a sale and everything went for the same price, so I got the umbrella for the same price as the lipstick box with the mirror and all the other stuff. I also bought some earrings, some I will give away. Will keep the spirals. I am crazy about the spirals.

Well, that's about it, folks. And so far I survived, although now I need to kick the cat out. No, not animal torture, I'd only prefer if he went home and not begged for food from the neighbours (us). The little bugger...

Something wicked this way crawls

All right, you can call me crazy.

But something is coming. I feel it in my bones. Again, you can call me crazy, but things have been too quiet recently. It feels like the calm before the storm. You know that feeling... when everything goes utterly silent, nothing moves, the air gets heavy, electricity zaps you when you touch things, you feel a sort of pressure, your skin tingles, and then...

...and then everything explodes into motion as the wind picks up, starts really blowing and then the storm is upon you.

Of course, with storms you can usually tell by the heavy clouds, but here... here you only have that feeling and hear the silence and observe the complete lack of movement.

And man, I seriously don't want to be hit by lightning.

Decided to read some Bleach, because every time I look at the cage while sitting next to it or walking next to it hurts.

So...

• Kenpachi is still damn sexy (and unhinged) as ever, check.
  
  
• Crazy dude with scythe dead, check.
  
  
• (Slain by Ken-chan, check. Yup, that guy still has it in him...)
  
  
• Ulquiorra still being mysteriously emo, check. (It pisses me off, that guy.)
  
  
• Gin's funny and cute as always, check.
  
  
• Aizen's a creepy thing as usual, check.
  
  
• Woohoo, new hot(meaning unhinged) guy fighting Kira, check.
  
  
• Killed by Kira a few episodes later (a shame, really), check.
  
  
• Gone blind because I saw a seriously ugly and overly muscled transvestite (I quote his battle cry: "Beautiful Charlotte Coolhorn's miracle sweet ultra funky fantastic dramatic romantic sadistic erotic exotic athletic... guillotine attack!" *retching noises*) in some hideously low-cut pants and tiara, check.
  
  
• And then he transforms into... see picture for reference.

Blind yet? I sure am.

In loving memory

2002-2009

I hereby announce that after a few short days of illness, and a horrible doctor's visit, "Merlin" (better known as oi, you little fuzzy) has passed away today afternoon.

Rest in peace.

I had one wicked dream

Story goes:

We were going to crash a wedding. I was going with the guy who was the real groom, and the bride's one true love - until he got tricked by her evil stepmom and her "uncle", and now the "uncle" was the groom, although he was a monster, really. A shapeshifter actually.

Anyway, we went in as guests invited by the groom, and the real groom dressed up as a woman. The uncle took one look at him and was smitten. I think he knew the groom was a tranny. Heheh. Also, it was a masked ball. It was the day before the wedding, some sort of silly celebration. Tradition, really. It was really highclass, and pretty scary too, felt like Halloween.

The uncle, since he had a crush on the groom, let us in. We went to the upper level to hang out with "the monsters". The groom's partner was a zombie, (intelligent, but ugly) and mine was a guy who turned into a glass skeleton in the moonlight. I think I saw too many crystal skull films. (Maybe on Discovery? Oh well.) Anyway, my partner was the skeleton.

Sometime later that evening, the uncle started playing Thriller (never saw the clip, but I made my necro dance too many times...), and as it began playing, and the lights were turned off and moonlight streamed in and nearly all the monsters changed to their monsterly appearance and danced to it in perfect sync.

It was almost scary how utterly silent they were as they gracefully swept through the dance. I saw some of their glowing eyes and some leathery skin, and I felt a chill, like I was standing in a desolate graveyard, a haunted one and witnessed something I shouldn't have. I reclined against a pillar to remind me where I actually was.

Anyway, after this the monsters started to speak one by one, giving a speech about how they got ignored, hunted and how there are less and less of them. And each of them complained that they are hungry, and they stepped out one by one onto the railing of the inner balcony and looked down to pick someone they would eat.

The vampire (I think he looked pretty much like the vampire from Brooklyn) started talking fairly early, and then it looked at me and came closer, even though I sat with the monsters. (Why I sat with the monsters in a pure white dress and white sandals and with a white shawl on my shoulders, I had no idea.) I watched him, scared out of my wits for a moment, utterly terrified and riveted, but in a milisecond I wasn't scared anymore. I knew I wasn't supposed to be. So I looked up at him incredulously and wved him off with a "Oh, just go away.", that worked quite well.

But then rain came, and I whipped my pristine white shawl over my head and ran like hell, chanting "I'm gonna melt, I'm gonna melt!"

Well, that answered my question.

Anyway, dunno how it could rain inside a building, maybe it was a garden for all I knew, or... dunno (it was a castle btw), but everyone tried to run to safety. I ran to the stairs, the staircase was really wide with a stripe of a railing running up it, with empty space under it, so I ran under the empty space and sat under the wide, wooden railing. I didn't melt, luckily.

And then I saw the bride's little (not that little actually, he had a deep voice, which is all I know) brother, who was hiding and reading under one of the side railings next to the wall, which was wide enough only to cover him, but he seemed to have been hiding there for a long while now. He was also reading avidly, ignoring the party and the freakout of the rain. He also sat next to me and when I heard his voice so close I jumped down a few stairs, utterly scared that he would see me.

I realized just then that I came for him, although I had no idea who he was... I think. I guess I came to kidnap the little brother while the real groom snatched the bride to safety, whatever.

I was just about to declare to him I came to save him, when the stepmom came strolling up the stairs with some pompous older woman, complaining about all these rowdy partygoers, who were apparently all invited by the groom (uncle, and theyx were the monsters), who were all obviously left wingers. I had to slep my hands over my mouth to stop myself from laughing so hard and loud.

And then they went up and I turned to the little brother... and then I got woken up by the phone, godsdamnit.

You can all take one guess who I was supposed to be. In the comments please, not on msn.

Dissing Fate Stay Night Part 2

Ok, I know I'm talking about an anime, and anime tend to be absolute rubbish with made-up stupid foreigner names and utterly stupid things stolen and thrown in for fun for Japanese who obviously have no idea what they are talking about...

But this is so bad I just have to go on with the list. It is sort of hilarious... Too bad it pisses me off. So...

• Our knight lady is actually called Arthuria. She's also a King. Well, I've always wondered about Arthur and Lancelot, but still, if she's Arthuria, what the hell is going on with Ginevere? And who fathered Mordred if both Arthuria and Morgause (Arthur's sister) are female? Hmmm... I wonder. No, I really don't wanna know.
  
  
• Oh, and our noble King, who is a lady knight, who is a frikkin woman, for the gods' sake, is a dragon as well. Uh-huh. Of course. Because the knights of the roundtable love dragons... Suuuure.
  
  
• Then, they introduce the plot twist: we need to have sex to defeat the bad guys. Actually, one girl attacks the hero and then attacks the lady knight. Yup, because threesomes are awesome and they save the world. (Kinda makes me wonder about Future Peter and Future Hiro and Present Peter... *blush* Hold on... that's two Peters and two more Peters than I'm usually interested in so let's switch Present Peter with anyone else... Like... Daphne. They need at least one girl, no? Too bad Angela is related and too old anyway...)
  
  
• The archer guy. Servant. Summoned little pet, or whatever. I'll post a picture. First time I saw him I knew he reminded me of someone. Doesn't it remind you of someone? Seriously.
  
  
  Just take a looooong look.
  
  And... I seriously prefer Mr Stampede, tyvm.
  
  
• Anyway, the archer guy's special power seems to be the ability to massacre the English language and utter phrases in this butchered English that makes me cry laughing. Oh, and he also utters a lot of nonsense and certain sayings that rattle of dust.
  
  

So far, that's it. Will add more as it goes on. I mean it's a goldmine.

Thanks to my darling chinchilla being a total idiot, I have now been properly acquainted with chinchilla penises.

Why, you ask? Well, this idiot had clogged his weewee with something, probably a mix of bathing dust and his own poo. It was dragging after him, and he had been way too amiable recently so I knew he was sick. Well, his wee-wee couldn't be retracted properly, like it should have been, and it was big and well... a greyish shade of purple. Ewww.

Since my mom got home early, thanks to the thick ice coating the streets (her boss actually sent her and her coworkers all home because paying for the injuries would have cost more), we had ample opportunity to scrutinize poor Merlin's privates and try to figure out what to do.

Obviously, Merlin would have frozen before we got to the doctor, so that was a bad idea. (Not to mention the doc still hasn't gotten back to me with his fur shedding problem after a whole fucking year, although I'm thinking it's probably depression.) So we cleaned off the fur ring, and tried to get that clogging out. We used olive oil on the fur ring and then soapy water to melt the clogging, but the water didn't help, neither did the soap.

By that time we all had touched poor Merlin's weewee, who took it rather stoically, the poor sod. We put him back after a while and studied up on the net and tried to come up with ideas.

That's when I decided we were utter perverts, because I suggested smearing jam over his weewee, so he'll clean himself, like he is supposed to. I mean he loves jam, so... why not?

My mom suggested hanging his weewee into a small cup of wine. We did the latter after my dad came home and told us we need to help the poor sod, asap. So we took off an old perfume bottle's cap, cleaned it, filled it with wine (it wasn't much, really, before someone gets a heart attack, and not the best wine either), and stuck his weewee in. Then, after a while we both took turns in trying to take out the clog (realizing in the middle, that he was able to piss, but not retract his equipment), and then, after a bit of clean up, we stuck it back into the wine. It nearly perfectly retracted, so now we put the poor sod back to his cage to clean himself.

We might rinse, repeat the wine process later on.

Lesson to be learned: don't clog up your penis or you'll get your dick stuck in wine.... or jam. :P

Dissing Fate Stay Night

What the title says. And blergh. Braaainsss!

I thought maybe after a few months I could start watching anime again. The Bleach fillers scared me away and I couldn't find anything I liked.
I thought maybe this time I'd found something a bit interesting. And then I started watching. My first reaction: Ye gods!

• The plot so far is mediocre at best. 7 mages are fighting for the possession of the Holy Grail. The grail picks them to fight each other for it. Yeah, because the Holy Grail needs a massacre. And the Grail picks lotsa twisted and evil people and like... one good guy. Uh-huh.
  
  
• Our main hero is a Mary Stue. Everybody loves him, girls fall for him at every turn. He is a goody two shoes who want to save everyone and he has a sad, sad past. (The last "Holy Grail War", which was about 10 years ago wiped a whole city, and he was the lone survivor. Sad, sad. He was adopted by a magician. I wouldn't be surprised if it was the adoptive dad's fault the town got wiped btw.)
  
  
• Our main hero believes girls shouldn't fight, because they injure themselves and girls should stay pretty and in the kitchen, protected by men. I hate that guy, ok?
  
  
• I cackled up when one of the summoned fighters (each mage summons a fighter, it's in the rules that the fighter fights for their mage who summoned them) called his lance Gáe Bulg! Well... it sounded a bit different, after all they were speaking Japanese... but seriously...
  So... Gáe Bulg. The wielder was once called Lancelot, although it might have been just his profession mis-pronounced. But... should I even mention that Gáe Bulg belongs to Cúculainn and NOT Lancelot? *sigh* Wrong fucking nationality, geniuses!
  
  
• But let's go on. Insane guy can be pointed out by his shady look, even from the opening. No surprise there.
  
  
• Knife-licking insane, demonic (or maybe demonic) chick, check. With long, gravity-defying spidery hair, check. Who also wears a skintight miniskirt and loves to crawl on objects Dracula-style (head down, backside up), check. Who has a dangerously low-cut top without anything suspending her boobies that are as big as mine (like F-cup), check. Antigravity boobies rule, no? Wish I had a pair of those.
  
  
• Adorable little girl, who is really cracked and insane and has blood red eyes and a huuuge monster: check.
  
  
• Huge monster called Berserker, who's really Heracles... that is when I felt this thing was utterly, utterly stupid, and I was so very sorry that nobody ever cares about getting any, or even one single little fact right.
  
  
• Girl, who's really a knight and nobody, nobody ever said she can't be a knight, check.
  
  
• *whimper* She's wielding the Excalibur! *hysterical sobbing* (I remember chanting "don't say Excalibur, if you say Excalibur I'm going to scream", but she called her sword Excalibur anyway, while she offed a Pegasus.) Besides the fact that the Excalibur rests with the Lady of the Lake, who is no friggin knight, there are no female knights of that period. Not sure about later but I haven't heard of female knights so far. And... the Excalibur, for the gods' sake! Will the pain ever stop?
  

Well, so far, this is it, and I'm only halfway through this insanity. Good gods, please spare me.

Falling out of love feels like a bitch. (NO, I don't want to get into a relationship now, thanks.)

That said... on a happier note: I decided to get my room in order. I'll throw out all the junk and organize some stacks of the lesser used books I'll get to my flat once the smog clears. Because yes, besides having issues with the Russia and the gas, we also have a smog problem... some kind of natural phenomenon not letting the smoggy air clear out... but there'll be wind and snow in a few days and that'll clear it out, or so I was told.

Whatever happens, I need to clean my room of the junk I've been storing for ages. I'll throw out not-used old items and old bags that look pretty but can't be used anymore because getting them fixed costs more than getting a new, prettier one. Nuff siad. Sentimental stuff may or may not stay, because they are mostly the plush toys... But we shall see. It all depends.

There is a cavern beneath the world. aka The Man. The Woman. The Snake. The Bowl.

Some hardcore Sandman fans might have already realized who I'm going to talk about. Or maybe some people who like Norse mythology.

Last night I've read Season of Mists, and I've had some pretty interesting dreams afterwards (taking a long stroll in the cavern beneath the world), and woke up still in the dark. And then I had to read certain parts of American Gods, because I couldn't remember, and because he was in it...

So... take your three guesses, because I'm going to post a picture. ^^

So... yeah, this guy.

I always had a soft spot for trickster gods. They tend to be adorable and cunning. I also remember, during the exam of... well, it was either Celtic Mythology/History or Viking History/Mythology, because the teacher was the same and the oral parts of the two exams were pretty much overlapping...

So, I remember that during the exam I was supposed to talk about the books I've read. You had to read 3 shorter books, 3 long studies or one looong book for each exam, by the way. And I picked the Edda, because that was long enough, and I was, still am a sucker for mythology. And in the end, she asked me which god I liked best from the whole of Edda.

I said Loki without thinking, right off the bat. There was no competition. I mean Loki, the god of chaos, change, the trickster, someone who had so many sides none of the other gods did (and a very clever head on his shoulders), is still my favourite. Of course he is usually associated with winter, and I wouldn't say he is that benevolent (actually he will take part in Ragnarök, fighting on the side of Jötunn, but let's not go there), but hey, he's still cute.

Uhm... that's about it.

New hairdo. The stripes got too wide, but I had to do them alone and I was tired from dying the rest red, so I'm happy with what I have now.

I think it's not too bad either.Oh and before you complain, I froze while waiting for the dye to work so yeah, I was pretty frozen at that point.

On the other hand, I managed to scratch a deep red line on my nose while asleep. Ouch. But it'll heal.

I just realized I completely forgot to mention it in September that my hair got chopped off. And then in early December, when I had it cut back because my hair grows fast.

I was insane, ok? I miss my long hair. I can't even tie this back into a pony tail! Also, my hair never had been this short my entire life. (Save when I was born...)

Sure, short hair is convenient and needs less attention, but... It also saves me much trouble, because I used to spend at least one and a half hours with my hair when washing and drying... and don't get me started on the dying process...

Actually, mine needs to be dyed again. I did ponder about stopping with the perm once and for all and going back to my original colour... but that was for like a minute. The perm might be dropped, but going back to my natural hair colour? No way. I'm not going back to being blond.

Unless of course I run out of henna for the rest of my life.

Anyway, I'm thinking of putting black stripes in my hair again.

So, this is how I look these days... with glasses to boot. Ok, I admit, the picture sucks... will put up a new one once I re-dye my hair.

Oh. My. Gods!

DBZ movie! American style! American actor shall play Goku. *shakes head* This is really...

And Piccolo (my personal fave after Vegita - bite me, I was young once) will also be played by an American actor, but that one I really don't mind. *cough* Piccolo will be played by James Marsters.

Laughing yet? No? I guess nobody really remembers the guy. Looke at the picture, you might.

Yeah, I admit, I really liked the peroxide/radioactive blond vampire. Hey, he had a leather duster, docs and witty one-liners. I know, I know, he also had a very fake, very painful British accent, but I wouldn't know that. (I'm blissfully not a native English speaker, duh.) And for gods' sake, he was hot! No, not the hair colour. I don't go for blonds, I really don't. But... the cheekbones might have played the part, as much as the boots. ^^ And come on, the guy listened to Sex Pistols!

Oh well... we all know I have a soft spot for vampires and green guys (no, not zombies)... and of course the Pyramid Head... In the movie... *gulp*

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the pencils work just fine

What the title says. I used... 6 of 10 colours, mostly greens and brown and yellow, but I also used two of my blues.

I started with drawing eyes and... it turned out like this. Sorry for the name-stamping, but as someone wise once said: "It only gets stolen if you put it on the net". And while I don't think this is the most perfect, beautiful drawing in the world, and also it's half-finished, I'd rather nobody stole it.

So, this is it.

I'm so ashamed!

Today I braved the cold and went to buy myself some Derwent pencils, but I couldn't find any in the hobby and art shops. They had Conté and Bruynzeel. Sigh.

So I bought 10 new aquarel pencils. >.< Shame on me, really.

Of course since there was no Derwent Drawing, I felt cheated. Charcoal pencils are not that good, so I went for Bruynzeel Oil, but they had only one bloody pencil in all 4 shops, so I bought that one, which was luckily a kind of dark ochre I needed. And I asked them to please oh please restock. With puppy eyes.

Will take at least a month. *pout*

On a happier note: by going out into the city, I finally got to try out my new, pretty pearl eyeshadow, copper mascara and the candied apple coloured lipstick/gloss I got from my mom for Christmas. Not the blush, since I blush in the cold naturally anyway. The lipstick was a bit strong (and very different from the deep browns and dark coppers I normally use), but it didn't clash with my hair colour, strangely. So I added some peach lip gloss to it and it looked pretty neat.

But a note for future reference: even though chapped lips are less desirable than cold lips, dropping the lipgloss at sub-zero temperature is suggested strongly.

Whining, mostly

Slowly going insane. It's a very very cold winter. Every channel mentions it in their news every damn time. I'm not daring the cold if I don't have to. My back just got better and finally I'm not hacking up my lungs. Although my throat still hurts, mostly after sleeping tho... *whine-whine*

I decided to order beads and a bunch of S-Lon, because I can't really do beading without S-Lon - and did a short translation. Hey, money is money.

Still have one and a half season of Alias to watch, two halves of seasons of Supernatural (half of season 3 and the other half is season 4... they will air some more later in January... although I'm not that keen about Supnat). I have the third season of the IT Crowd and season one and two of Dexter.

I also wanted to re-read the Dresden Files from book 1 to book 10... or was Small Favor book 11? Dunno. Too lazy to check. I also want to read the Graveyard Book. It's kinda cute, made me want to read A Hat Full of Sky. And then maybe Carpe Jugulum... Or maybe... Wee Free Men. And of course I'd have to read Wyrd Sisters then too. And then there's Vörös Oroszlán I still need to finish... Yare yare.

And I feel so damn tired and droopy, lifeless even. Sometimes I think I'm half part plant because the lack of sunlight makes me utterly depressed.

Shopping list

Since it's freezing and if I can listen to my migraine, it won't let up anytime soon but will get colder in a day or two... I've decided to write a shopping list. It keeps me occupied in any case.

Derwent Drawing:

• 5700 Ochre (ran out of)
  
• 3720 Ink Blue (pretty!)
  
• 5160 Olive Earth (about to run out of)
  
• perhaps even 6300 Venetian Red or 6110 Sepia, although I don't use much red... but I love reddish browns...
  

Derwent Coloursoft:

• C320 Electric Blue, because it's really pretty and I want it
• C400 Mild Green or C380 Sea Green (I'm always in need of new greens because you can't have enough greens)
• C230 Pale Lavender or C240 Bright Purple or C270 Royal Purple (I love purple but... what the hell would I draw with it?)
• C350 Icy Blue... I want but probably don't need that many blues... oh well, we shall see... do they give discounts for this many? :D

S-Lon (running low in every colour):

• black (works with the darker beads)
  
• grey (works with everything, save black)
  
• white (is cheap and works fine with lighter shades and pastels)

Swarovski rounds (because butterflies need their wings to sparkle):

• 4mm
• 6mm
• maybe even 3mm?

Should go to the store where I can pick from a bowl of assorted sizes and colours and buy them by grams... it is a cheap store anyway...

More to follow...

Shopping is Scary!

• My mom guilting my dad into coming with us to sit outside and hold our coats... check.
  
  
• Nearly freezing to death... check.
  
  
• Trampled over by kind looking old ladies who wanted to get to the shop first (It wasn't even the shop we wanted to go to... good gods. *sigh*)... check.
  
  
• Incidentally, getting scared shitless of the post-Christmas sales... check.
  
  
• Nearly running out screaming upon the first sight of the full, really full shop... check.
  
  
• Managed to snag the last, very last piece of purple... all right plum coloured sweater (Yay, go me! I so bought that one. ^^)... check.
  
  
• Trying on some sinfully expensive silk gowns while my mom was trying on pullovers of the same bloody style in all the different colours for hours... check.
  
  
• Unintentionally flashing some old ladies the pentagram around my neck and scaring them shitless (It was just a small, one pointy end up pentagram for gods' sake! Why is it that for these things they never need glasses?)... check.
  
  
• Getting bored and finding two more different, low-cut black sweaters (And they even had some buttons on the front if I wanted to flash my boobies for anyone. *rolls eyes* Like I need to do that.)... check.
  
  
• Staring longingly at lace topped sheer stockings and then not buying them because I never liked the feel and don't wear any. (I'm also allergic to nylon. *sigh* And where would I wear them?)... check.
  
  
• Standing in line for more than half an hour... check.
  
  
• Freezing back to human sized ice cube on the way back... check.
  
  
• Looking disturbingly like a nun with my white turtleneck and one of the black pullovers... check.
  
  
• Being happy I only had to go to only one shop to find all my stuff... check.

Testing, testing

Huh. So... I was wondering... If my future employers ever want to check up on me, I'd like them to tell me their take of this picture.

So far I was told it's slightly sexy, slightly domina, slightly icy.
I think it looks like I've been drinking too much and wanna check if I have any nose hairs. I also think I scare the living daylights out of myself. ^^ (Btw, it also looks like my nose had been pushed to the side thanks to that line of light and me cursing at the camera. It looks funny.)

What's your take?

PS: it was taken before I had my hair chopped off. I kinda miss my hair. Snif.

PS2: I really love that you guys gave your take on msn, but I was hoping for some comments... oh well.