One exam over, countless to follow.
I'll have an important linguistic exam, and... I'll need help to pass it. And I really mean help. I'll be bled to death before I finish the uni. ^^

What more? Ah yes, I can wear less jewellery around my wrists, seeing as my scars are nearly invisible. Of course, I know where they are, and... well, those who know where they are can see them, but if you are not searching... you'd never know they are there. Jolly good.

Well, yes, I did many things, and I never asked people to pity me. I would like my friends to remember... Course it's not gonna happen. They either flock me with useless pity, or look at me and say: oh, disgusting.
Still, even if I know how to use a knife, at least it was always a conscious decision. I can at least say, that I remember everything, I control everything (as cutting one's self and doing other "mean" or "bad" things to one's body is always considered to be about control, which is the case with me without any doubt...), and I don't black out.
I considered creating myself another personality as something not required. Of course I am prone to mood swings and feel like I could chose from several personalities, but hey, at least I don't posess several individualistic personalities.

I am doing things because I have issues about control, as in, I need more. What those who have several personalities do, is placing the blame on someone else, looking for a way out. What I'm doing right now is striving to survive, and trying to get my life back in control.

And yes, I have control issues. Like nobody ever noticed before. Duh. Having the hots for a vulcan, and naming him my role model when I was young should have clued people in.

Anyway, for those whom it concerns: I am a control freak. Don't mix me up with those who want a scapegoat. We are on the opposite ends of the spectrum. Still, it does not mean I feel superior to those who have multiple personalities. I just feel that I would be unable to do it. We have different needs as far as I can tell. Gimme a few years, and I might change my mind. Or will that be we then? :D