Sunday, July 15, 2007

Have you ever wished someone would just drop dead and stay that way? I mean happening in one moment, not building up slowly to an annoyance. Like a strong convinction that you just can't go on if it stays this way.

Well I do.

It is one thing, that I can't go and travel for a while in summer, which is troublesome, because my parents are a bunch of hypocrites who are bitter, stupid and can't think out of the box. Sad, but true. No wonder they have no friends.
It is another, that my folks see this as a chance to vent their angers on me, because I am studying for my exam that's standing between me and my graduation and chance to leave my parentals behind. And believe me, I wish to leave them as far behind as physically possible. As far as my life is concerned, I can thank all my psychological issues to them.

Anyway, besides as them ranting and criticising every aspect of my life, preference in clothes and friends and... well... every aspect of my life, they even think they are a gift from heaven and are meant to ruin everything I own just because it does not suit their tastes.
The funny thing is that I'm not some teenager, and hell, if I lived anywhere else, any other country I would be away from them long ago, but given that this is Hungary... I'm not.
Wish I were. There is no day I do not think about leaving uni and all behind and just find some mindless job and move *away*. Even suicide would do, but really, I don't plan on ending my life.
Just because a pair of reatrds think I'm not the most perfect person on earth I'm not gonna give them the satisfaction to see me crumble.
I have a higher IQ, friends (albeit few, but trusted), ideals and a fucking will to have as much fun in life as I can manage with my personal issues, allergy and assorted illnesses (large part of it I'm told is born from psychological issues, all thanks to my folks... figures).

So. Plan so far: ace the exam (or even pass it), get a job, move out, never come back again.
Sounds good, eh?

1 comment:

gyerekember said...

Exactly what I'm doing.
All I need now is a washing machine...