Time moves and I didn't have any... well... motives to write. Anything.

I passed my teaching practice examination. I got a 3, and am happy with it.
I even survived the X-mas tradition in my family, which is, that all kind of family members are let in into the same room and they start screaming each other's heads off. Fun, really.

Honestly, I'm a bit better, seeing that I didn't have any peace and quiet for months. Not to mention any kind of little breathers. Currently I'm trying to clear my mind. I'm just waking up on the idea, that friends can't be trusted with anything either.
I did know it, I mean I am a pessimistic person, but I always forget...
Well, I woke up. Didn't really shake me that hard, I am used to friends disappointing me when I count on them. Not to mention that I have something better. I just have to warm up to the idea again.
While I had my little teaching practice, I couldn't concentrate on anything else, and that parts of my brain were firmly shut... I'm so proud of myself... I can learn to shut it out.
Still, now I'll have to get used to the idea again, unless I want to end up as a skyzophrenic... quite possibly mad. It would be so funny if I got scared of every shadow. Or maybe not. ^^
Well, I have got a bunch of candle holders, and a lot of candles too, so I can organize a party. Maybe I'll even have some time to look into a few informative books about vodou. If I find some valid ones, not that stupid new age mumbo-jumbo. It makes me sick just to think of them.
If I wanted some mystic smoke, herbs, goddesses and nightresses for treehugging... well, I would chose to accept them. Thing is, I want to read things as they were. Nothing mystic about a religion...
I just want to know, how they did it, and what they did really.
And then... I will alter my views of things accordingly.