Friday, January 13, 2012

Oh bugger

Well. I guess I got down to finally writing this post. But I still don't wanna.

Maybe I didn't want to write this because I'm still a bit numb about the whole thing or because I'm still waiting for a lot of test results... maybe I don't want to translate all that shit... or maybe I just don't want to accept the whole fucking thing. Or hell. Maybe I hate whining. (Ha, no. Well... depends.)

So anyway. What we (me and my docs) know so far:
  • I have hormonal issues... major hormonal issues
  • one of my ovaries is half the size of the other
  • I have struma nodosa, aka goitre, small and not so small swells and knots in my thyroid, and there is a teeny tiny healthy bit left, which is not enough for anything
  • the doc doing my ultrasound told me my thyroid looked very ugly... and that I should have a long talk with my doc about how to proceed
  • still waiting for my blood test results
  • still waiting for my ovarian cancer test results (really hoping for a negative)

So this is it in a nutshell. I'm scared shitless, I think. I don't really know what to do. I don't know what option to choose.

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