We're having april showers. In MAY.
Fantastic.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Friday, May 29, 2009
I think I'm in love.
The new fountain pen I've been gifted with (Thank you, Eleanor!) is like a dream.
The tip writes thinly but beautifully, it's light and makes just enough scraping sound - like a fountain pen is supposed to.
Also, it's purple with green stars.
Ok, there's a redheaded girl on it, but still, I've had much sillier looking pens than this one, and this one writes like a dream. It's awesome!
So... I love it! ^^
The new fountain pen I've been gifted with (Thank you, Eleanor!) is like a dream.
The tip writes thinly but beautifully, it's light and makes just enough scraping sound - like a fountain pen is supposed to.
Also, it's purple with green stars.
Ok, there's a redheaded girl on it, but still, I've had much sillier looking pens than this one, and this one writes like a dream. It's awesome!
So... I love it! ^^
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Men are bloody inconsiderate, and it's pissing me off.
Lately, men I know say to me: "Hey, I wanna do this, let's go!" or "This sounds interesting, my treat.". Well, their treat is nice and all but what if I don't wanna go? What about asking me what I want to do?
I prefer to do things at my pace. It probably comes from being an only child. The fact is, I prefer more alone time. I hate to spend a day with someone. Anyone. Well, probably save for about 3-5 people, but they are all female, all long time friends and I don't feel being suffocated even if we do spend a day or a week or two together.
Guys on the other hand never can get me into a comfortable mood. I mean I've never found a guy with the same interests, and as I have mentioned, who would ask me if I wanna do something... or not. It's suffocating. I am a loner, I admit that, but then again, is it really enjoyable if you have to watch or read something you hate because the other party wants you to?
They either want me to read, watch or do things I hate or at least can't enjoy, or they want me to do things (either things I hate or generally don't mind to do) when I want to do other things. But do they care if I'm up to any of these? Hell no.
Well, they don't usually care. Thanks to that I have to think of many excuses. But since I've had ENOUGH, I'll prolly just say I'll have to feed my dinosaur.
Lately, men I know say to me: "Hey, I wanna do this, let's go!" or "This sounds interesting, my treat.". Well, their treat is nice and all but what if I don't wanna go? What about asking me what I want to do?
I prefer to do things at my pace. It probably comes from being an only child. The fact is, I prefer more alone time. I hate to spend a day with someone. Anyone. Well, probably save for about 3-5 people, but they are all female, all long time friends and I don't feel being suffocated even if we do spend a day or a week or two together.
Guys on the other hand never can get me into a comfortable mood. I mean I've never found a guy with the same interests, and as I have mentioned, who would ask me if I wanna do something... or not. It's suffocating. I am a loner, I admit that, but then again, is it really enjoyable if you have to watch or read something you hate because the other party wants you to?
They either want me to read, watch or do things I hate or at least can't enjoy, or they want me to do things (either things I hate or generally don't mind to do) when I want to do other things. But do they care if I'm up to any of these? Hell no.
Well, they don't usually care. Thanks to that I have to think of many excuses. But since I've had ENOUGH, I'll prolly just say I'll have to feed my dinosaur.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
I have been tagged
1. Nevezz meg egy olyan énekest, vagy zenekart, akit szeretsz!
Dead Can Dance
2. A kérdésekre válaszolj az énekes/zenekar számaiból.
- Férfi vagy, vagy nő?
Enigma of the Absolute ^^
- Írj magadról!
Tell Me About the Forest You Once Called Home
- Hogyan írnád le az előző kapcsolatodat?
The Ubiquitous Mr Lovegrove
- Milyen a jelenlegi kapcsolatod?
How Fortunate the Man With None
- Most hol lennél szívesen?
Wild In The Woods
- Mit gondolsz a szeretetről?
A In Power We Entrust The Love Advocated
- Milyen az életed?
A Design For Living
- Mit kérnél, ha egy kívánságod volna?
Fortune
Tagelem: Eleanort... kizárásos alapon.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Tsundere
Since I've totally forgotten what I wanted to talk about today...
Actually, I was composing my blog entry while I watered my grandma's garden for a whole hour - a quite satisfying workout if I might add with climbing of steps, pulling of heavy, uncooperative hose and jumping about whenever discovering dead, half-chewed baby birds... ick!! - and I promptly forgot what I wanted to write. C'est la vie.
So... back to a title I have been gifted with a while ago and which came up again tonight... and a title that should describe me, which I do not agree with. At all.
So... what exactly is this tsundere word and what does it stand for? Don't worry, I'll quote wiki.
"Tsundere (ツンデレ ) is a Japanese word for a character archetype which describes a person with a conceited, spiky, combative personality that suddenly becomes modest and loving when triggered by some sort of cause (such as being alone with someone).
...I must admit, I do not agree. I'm not dere at all. *pout*
Actually, I was composing my blog entry while I watered my grandma's garden for a whole hour - a quite satisfying workout if I might add with climbing of steps, pulling of heavy, uncooperative hose and jumping about whenever discovering dead, half-chewed baby birds... ick!! - and I promptly forgot what I wanted to write. C'est la vie.
So... back to a title I have been gifted with a while ago and which came up again tonight... and a title that should describe me, which I do not agree with. At all.
So... what exactly is this tsundere word and what does it stand for? Don't worry, I'll quote wiki.
"Tsundere (ツンデレ ) is a Japanese word for a character archetype which describes a person with a conceited, spiky, combative personality that suddenly becomes modest and loving when triggered by some sort of cause (such as being alone with someone).
(...)
Tsundere is a combination of the two words tsuntsun (ツンツン ), and deredere (デレデレ ). Tsuntsun is defined as "aloof, morose, pointed", and deredere is defined as "exhausted, lovestruck"."...I must admit, I do not agree. I'm not dere at all. *pout*
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Sunday, May 03, 2009
mothers day
Well, since I am into Chinese knots this spring, I decided to do some knotwork ornament for my mom this year. She always tells me not to buy useless stuff for her, because she doesn't want any, she has all kinds of beaded jewelry, thanks to me and seriously, I'll have to do beaded stuff for her Birthday and Name-day so...
So I had some leftover, shorter (like 1m long) silk cord, so I made a button knot, a butterfly knot, two double-coin knots with some added yellow silk cord and finished it with another button knot. It wasn't all that difficult, but it sure looked hot. Of course I'm slowly getting better at making more and more difficult patterns, I mean the butterfly knot is a variant of the pan-chang knot, but I'm nowhere near being able to tie the mystic's knot.
Anyway... long story short, she took it, showed it to my dad and then attached it to the handle of her bag. ^^
So when I finally got around to making a picture of it, it was already attached to her bag. Forgive me for the strange angle.
So I had some leftover, shorter (like 1m long) silk cord, so I made a button knot, a butterfly knot, two double-coin knots with some added yellow silk cord and finished it with another button knot. It wasn't all that difficult, but it sure looked hot. Of course I'm slowly getting better at making more and more difficult patterns, I mean the butterfly knot is a variant of the pan-chang knot, but I'm nowhere near being able to tie the mystic's knot.
Anyway... long story short, she took it, showed it to my dad and then attached it to the handle of her bag. ^^
So when I finally got around to making a picture of it, it was already attached to her bag. Forgive me for the strange angle.
Kredenc avagy megint lecsapott a random browsing
Ismerős még? Hirtelen rátaláltam, és linkelni kellett. ^^
Friday, May 01, 2009
I'm pissed off
I'm angry. Obviously, I'm not the right kind of friend for half my... friends.
I've came to realize that lying is one of the most important things in maintaining a friendship, and it doesn't sit well with me. Mostly, because I have to use white (or a bit darker shade of) lies to keep our friendships going smoothly, and then swallow a few things from them, things that I feel are a bit too cruel. And they say they just didn't want to lie.
True. Truth hurts. But why is it that in our friendships it's only me who gets hurt by the "truth"? I wonder.
If I tell the truth, I'm get told "that really hurt" or "you're hurting me", but if I'm hurt, I hardly get a "sorry" in return. So I wonder sometimes if it's really worth it. I mean sure, I really wish to tell some people things like "yeah, your folks are completely right, and you should really wake up and realize in what kind of situation you are", or "of course no girl would go out with you, since you fall in love with a new girl every 2-3 days, you don't even seem remotely serious, not manly either, and for god's sake, why the hell do you have to talk about other women while you're trying to sweet-talk another one?!", or "and which guy are you going out with today?", or even "yeah, and you're telling me you didn't really like her because you got dumped... suuuuure". And the list goes on.
Yeah, I know I'm not easy to deal with. My priorities are skewered badly, like I'd sooner buy a bag of pretty beads than buy a movie ticket or coffee. I also know I have a twisted personality, open my mouth to change feet and I whine way too much... not to mention how much of an introvert I am. But I know all that. Don't think I don't beat up myself over it every day. But hell, I don't keep it a secret. I tell people beforehand. I expect them to know. I sometimes feel like changing myself, but then again, every time I try, I get a slap on the hand by life... but again, let's not go there. There is a reason why I'm the way I am, and at the moment I'm pretty much satisfied with my personality. I consider myself more or less sane, normal and reasonable. I could be a lot worse. (Or it could be much better.)
So back to my friends... I dunno what to do. I'm not saying they suck, but maybe I'll be just simply honest for a change next time they ask for my honest opinion - and they'll get it. My honest opinion, that is. They'll probably not like it, and I guess then I'll see some interesting reactions.
And I think I'll be looking for some new friends if they don't realize that honesty is always brutal - and that honesty goes both ways in a friendship.
I've came to realize that lying is one of the most important things in maintaining a friendship, and it doesn't sit well with me. Mostly, because I have to use white (or a bit darker shade of) lies to keep our friendships going smoothly, and then swallow a few things from them, things that I feel are a bit too cruel. And they say they just didn't want to lie.
True. Truth hurts. But why is it that in our friendships it's only me who gets hurt by the "truth"? I wonder.
If I tell the truth, I'm get told "that really hurt" or "you're hurting me", but if I'm hurt, I hardly get a "sorry" in return. So I wonder sometimes if it's really worth it. I mean sure, I really wish to tell some people things like "yeah, your folks are completely right, and you should really wake up and realize in what kind of situation you are", or "of course no girl would go out with you, since you fall in love with a new girl every 2-3 days, you don't even seem remotely serious, not manly either, and for god's sake, why the hell do you have to talk about other women while you're trying to sweet-talk another one?!", or "and which guy are you going out with today?", or even "yeah, and you're telling me you didn't really like her because you got dumped... suuuuure". And the list goes on.
Yeah, I know I'm not easy to deal with. My priorities are skewered badly, like I'd sooner buy a bag of pretty beads than buy a movie ticket or coffee. I also know I have a twisted personality, open my mouth to change feet and I whine way too much... not to mention how much of an introvert I am. But I know all that. Don't think I don't beat up myself over it every day. But hell, I don't keep it a secret. I tell people beforehand. I expect them to know. I sometimes feel like changing myself, but then again, every time I try, I get a slap on the hand by life... but again, let's not go there. There is a reason why I'm the way I am, and at the moment I'm pretty much satisfied with my personality. I consider myself more or less sane, normal and reasonable. I could be a lot worse. (Or it could be much better.)
So back to my friends... I dunno what to do. I'm not saying they suck, but maybe I'll be just simply honest for a change next time they ask for my honest opinion - and they'll get it. My honest opinion, that is. They'll probably not like it, and I guess then I'll see some interesting reactions.
And I think I'll be looking for some new friends if they don't realize that honesty is always brutal - and that honesty goes both ways in a friendship.
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