I was pondering about black magic. (Now don't get me wrong, I don't believe in the white magic-black magic crap, I only believe in gray and black, as white does not and cannot exist. I do believe I did a long rant about it on this blog in the old days... Oh and notice me *not* using the word "magick". Ick!)

So... what about it? Whether to use something that will change another person or not. I don't take these kinds of things lightly, not anymore. Of course there are things I want and things I seek, but am not sure anymore it's worth ruining someone's life over this. Because it might. No matter what you do there are always consequences, and I'm too sure anymore that I do want to do that certain something at all costs.

I did once, I don't think it ruined anyone's life, but it did have certain consequences that I did not anticipate and was sad about. So right about now I'm trying to work out if it's worth or not. I's no longer about if I'm worthy or not. Not anymore.