bullet to the head

Today my dad offered to take me to work.

Seen as it takes me an hour to get in, I said, hell yeah.

But when I was actually in the car and mentioned conversationally that my TL scheduled me to work for 10 days straight without the compulsory 2 free days and to work 90 hours straight I was gonna talk to him as I was really annoyed with said TL (team leader).

Then my dear father told me that nothing was good enough for me, as I harp on any team leader I get, and nothing is ever good enough for me... and so on. I told him to let me out at the first bus stop, he countered that he promised to take me to work. And went on bitching, saying he only opened his mouth because I opened mine.

So I shut up, looked out of the window and refused to talk.

Once I was out I went in, logged into the network and hightailed it into the bathroom to cry for a good 5 minutes. Of course a coworker had to come in and she asked me what was wrong (I had the decency not to shut myself into one of the two toilets, because we only had 2 on the whole frikkin floor and she found me...). Surprisingly, she had something similar going on at home. It felt so good to find out I'm not the only miserable "kid" around.

Of couse my father had the decency to apologize later. I told him I'd have preferred he did not start it right before work, as I had to run into the bathroom to cry and technically there went my first break and had to work for 2 hours straight afterward.

Then my fave coworker cranks up the AC so it's 15°C inside. After I just almost recovered from a cold. Suffice to say I had to fight with her to have a bit of warmth in the whole fucking floor. I don't get these crazy bitches. Were they raised in Iceland or something??

Anyway, I leave work, wait in the cheery 12°C with wind (with teeth!) for the bus and finally get home... only to see the windows open.

My dear, darling mother was nice enough to air out the smell of onions of the flat. It was a nice 25°C inside when I left. Now it's about 22°C and it's not helping my cold.

And guess what. When I tell her I asked her not to air out the warmth, because she will not turn on the heater, obviously, she closes the door in my face. I have never, ever felt such an urge to hit a person. But hell, I'm on the moral high ground this time. I'm not the one who hits people, she is. Mostly for her own enjoyment.

Hell, she only stopped hitting me at about 18 because I told her if she hits me, I'll hit her back, twice as hard, and will enjoy it immensely.


And now I will go off and play Prototype, because the tech guys today played it and I feel it might lift my mood a little bit.

Hate me yet? I kind of hate myself for saying such awful things about my mother... but on the other hand, she absolutely deserves it, and more. Have you ever known a person who never says she is sorry and acts like nothing she did was wrong and just turns around and really, really does not care whatever you say? She just turns up the volume of her TV and does not care. What kind of person can do that?

Alive

Yup. Still kicking.

Can't say I'm too cheerful at the moment, but hey.
Finally had some time to live. I'm pulling 10 hour shifts, which finally got me sick. Yes, that was sarcasm. I'm planning on taking some much deserved sick leave.
Hey, I'll be fired in a month or two so who the hell cares?
Anyway. Bought some yarn, bought some buttons, will be creative tomorrow. I feel really, really weak. I mean I was planning on going to places today and I didn't get past the square 15 minutes away from home. Luckily for me there were 2 yarn shops on said square so I bought some yarn I will use to make some phone cases that I will attempt to sell later on.

Here're some piccies, just because now I have time to show some:

Bridge

That's number one, I suppose.

The company is moving its support to Egypt. About 200 people will be out of a job, me included.

I still dunno what to do. Looking for jobs suck. What I mean by that is that there are no jobs. Unless I speak 2 other languages (which I do not).

My mother is getting bullied at work (I'm pretty sure nobody likes her because she is a bitch - good gods, why can't she act like a normal person instead of being an ill-mannered, ill-tempered weirdo that she is??) and she bitches at me to make herself feel better.

I usually ignore her because shouting matches take a lot out of me. She is phisically unable to act like a normal, nice person. She can very well piss off. I don't care shit. She has a horrid personality, instead of shouting at me to alleviate stress she should fix it. It's her fault for pissing off the wrong people with her horrid personality in the first place.

And yes, she absolutely deserves my criticism of her wonderful personality. Hell, if she weren't my mother I wouldn't even go near her.

I dunno what I'm wishing for. Well, hell, I do know. I want a decent job with at least as much pay as I get these days, my workplace not to be too far, normal work hours (no night shifts and weekend shifts) and thus the possibility of moving out of the vicinity of my ill-tempered, ill-mannered, hysterical mother.

This was bullet one. I expect more to come.

It's raining lightning!

At 5 in the morning I heard thunder rolling in the distance, so I closed the windows save for the one looking over the balcony and then went to sleep.

At 9 I woke up to loud thunder and lightning that stuck repeatedly close by. I tried rolling over and going back to sleep with little luck. It was a heavy-duty storm raging outside. After half an hour I was way too tired and I fainted into bed, I think.

At 11 the storm was over and I went out to shop for stuff. Food, mostly and shampoo.

At 5 in the afternoon I heard thunder rolling in the distance, as if they were rolling huge stones... There were no storm clouds anywhere.

At about 7 - 8 the storm was back at full blast lightning struck every 5 seconds or so, it was awesome. All that raw power...!

So I tried to make a few pictures. Sadly, my camera is not one of those wonder where you press the shutter and it instantly takes the picture, it takes it about 1-2 seconds to get moving, therefore I just randomly pressed the button and got a few pretty pictures. The best picture should have been a double-lightning, but it is completely out of focus. Just my luck.













Suffice to say my camera suddenly announced that the batteries were dead and it shut down on me.

But as it was time to sleep (my shift started at 7 AM) so I went to sleep and fell alseep to the sound of thunder.

It was the most awesome day ever!