To mend or not to mend

I wonder if you can try to make up now for something you've done months ago.

In my book you just can't.

I might be called a bastard, but at the moment I feel like I just can't ignore something that made me doubt my friendship. Even if the culprit is sorry now and wants to mend it... There are some things that can't be mended.

Especially not if it happened weeks or moths ago. If someone feeels sorry, they should go and apologize then... or the next day. Not after a long while.

And especially not stating "I'd do anything to make it up...".

Thing is, if anyone feels so sorry to say this... it shouldn't have taken them this long to come to this life-altering conclusion.

Ergo they should have done this a looong time ago, because now... it just sounds used and sad.

Attack of the bad dreams

Been dreaming some horrid, gorey stuff. Day before I dreamt about cleaning after a mass-murderer who happened to be an old friend (befoe his taste for murders emerged).

This night I've dreamt about raiding some underground place where kidnapped people got hacked into pieces or were cut to bleed out. It was a labyrynth, some of us were kidnapped and killed by bleeding out and hacked to pieces.

I haven't watched anything funny or gorey, haven't eaten much in these days and as far as I know never wanted to do these thing to anyone.

So ick.

Feeling Emo

Guess this is what it feels like when a friend abandons you. After I spent ages on poking him into a relatively normal emotional-state... he got a backbone, he got back with his friends.

First thing he does: he forgets me. He goes off and talks to me only when he's bored to tears or thinks he has love problems.

I seriously think this is sad. I don't think it's much fun staying friends with a bloke like that. I also feel used. Am I pathetic? (Yeah, utterly. Much more for emoing like that. I'm seriously doubting my sanity here.)

You know... a friend like that is no friend of mine.

This Übers Alles

Again from Baby's Named A Bad Bad Thing!

"I really like Freddie Prinze jr. and heard his father was famous and died tragically. What was his name?"

*Hysterically tearing hair out.* I really really wanna kill all idiots.

Zonked out

Still not in the mood to ditch out Sci-Fi Harry. It sucked, let it be enough.

Anyway. I'm also avoiding political issues inside my country and outside of it, since I can't do a single thing about them. Were I in a position to do so, I'd shoot every idiot in the head. See?

Sooo.... about global warming. Something like that happaned once already, or at least something that left Greenland green. I mean besides the old sources stating that it was green, what lunatic (besides me) would name an island full of ice and cold Greenland? Repeat after me: green. See? Not hard at all.

Also, if people were that worried about it, they would do something about it. Nah, they are not worries about it. Am I sure about that? Sure. Are they panicking? No. Then they are not properly worried.

Nowadays, worry means shit. We all worry about... world peace. So we help the most idiotic race of all, the Americans (that was a joke btw - just not the idiotic part) shoot people in Iraq. Sure. World peace my ass.

If it were up to me I'd let the suicide bombers duke it out with America. They reap what they sow, simple as that. While I don't go and hit every idiot on the head just because they deserve it, America attacks people left and right because they might have done something to deserve it. (Like have oil in their lands. Pathetic.)

And that's the end for today. I take my painkillers, drink some warm tea with honey and calm down.

Yes... I might talk about Harry later. But not now.

Yesterday I've found one of the best anime scenes ever. Well, in my point of view.
I'm not much, if you consider it.

Story goes: guy fucks up, so he goes to the group-head (pretty much like a yakuza), who's in a pool on top of the rooftop. It's night, the pool is lit from under the water, so all is blue and sparkly. Guy goes in, admits failure, places gun next to the pool and offers the lady to shoot him. (Btw, he's a lover-subordinate of the pretty much crazy lady.)

Lady swims there, takes the gun and asks "You think that I won't shoot?"... and proceeds to shoot him in the knees. He falls to the floor, woman drops gun into the water, no longer interested in it. (Oh, those who can afford it all...)

After shooting, she swims to the poolside again, touches the face of the suffering guy, tells him to get it sorted out, and then mutters "You can get some medical care for your knees after I have my fun." And drags him underwater with her, kissing him, while the guy trails blood after him in the poolwater.

I found the scene pretty. It's not the dominance, it's not the violence, it sure as hell not the blood or the implied pool-sex afterward. I just think that the scene is pretty hot.

Dunno why exactly. But the guy prolly has something to do with it too. ^^

Sci-Fi Harry

In-depth bitching later, now I have to say... wtfbbq?!

It just ended and I'm totally, utterly and completely dumbfounded. What the heck really happened at the end anyway?!

Now anime like this makes my blood boil, and not in the good way. It ended with something utterly confusing, making the end useless, since I can't figure out wtf happened.

I might have to hope that there is a manga with a more detailed end I could read.

Well, yippee. Another handful of hours wasted.

I could start with boy, am I pissed, and then go on about how life sucks and my parents are bastards (not in the hereditary sense).

It would be all true, but very boring, no?

There's so much time I can spend being utterly annoyed and totally pissed off.

So let's go on about dissing japanese men instead. ^^

For one thing, they are really small. It's a lie that they are taller now. Not by much. They are not tall enough for me. I'd prefer if my guy could reach the high shelf since I can't. (Yeah, this is why I only date tall men. Duh.)

Also, japanese idols are bloody bony. It's like they are starving themselves. The girls are worse, but seriously, japanese guys (not the geeks, I'm talking about guys who are considered good-looking) are little more than bones stuffed in skin. It's pretty scary.

Then... they all have emo-haircuts. Ick? Ok, the black hair is a given, but seriously... all emo? So laaaame. Guess it's the most popular haircut over there. *Sigh.*

What else? Oh yes. I saw a half-blood Japanese guy. I must admit I found him the most handsome... well, technically the only do-able person on the set. He's half Spanish, pretty young, and he had some muscle and flesh on him. Also some body-hair. (Japanese men look like little kids, they hardly ever have body-hair as far as I have seen.) Still, he was too young to interest me. *Looks up name.* Btw he goes by the name Shirota Yuu. He sure has pretty eyes.

Still, I have to mention that Kamikawa Takaya piqued my interest. In the drama he played the dangerously homosexual school-nurse. ^^ Still, he was really cute, even if he really didn't look much like the original in the manga. Him I really wouldn't mind getting as a present from Santa. (Although I liked him as the school-nurse.)

Anime Review

Right. Here is a guy who runs around all secret-like. Silent as night, blends in with the shadows like a pro and is very athletic, so jumping a few storeys up and down is nothing to him. Wowzers!

Thing is... there are a few things I feel I should mention.
Our Stealth Agent wears a glaring RED, long trenchcoat, runs around the city with a drawn katana, takes strolls on the side of tall buildings (being all horizontal), and jumps from building to building that are kms away and lands safely on their side. Nah, not weird at all. Also, he wears a funny hat. (The piccie is of said anime hero.)











Still, maybe it's just me. I mean it's Japan we are speaking of, and maybe people are doing those things all the time so it might be ok. Also, maybe people don't see glaring red colour as we do.

Anything is possible, no?

But... is it me or does he remind me strongly of someone of another vampire-based anime? Hmm... You be the judge.

(Second piccie is of Alucard. He sometimes has long black hair. And wears goggles.)

Yup, no kidding. They made a shameless and tasteless copy of Alucard (alias Dracula).


I do believe the original is much much hotter, anime-character-wise. ^^

Oh, and he also has a funny hat!

Random Browsing Strikes Again!

This is for my niece, Dawn. She is expecting a baby girl in September. I suggested that they name her Dusk. What does everyone think?
I think her grand-daughter Nighttime would not approve. Or her grand-neices Afterhours and Graveyardshift.

Actually, I visited here again after some years. It still is as good as it was years before. Damn, she has that sarcasm I like. ^^

Source.